(I complain on here way too much...lol)
1. I need a JOB...ASAP
2. I Need My Car...BAD
3. I have a book/short story to write that should have been turned in yesterday. And I haven't started at all. (besides the basics of the plot and characters)
4. I have a paper due Friday for my history class, but my book is at home, and I am not.
5. Valentines Day is coming up, and I need a date (or a victim)..lol
6. my hair needs to be cut...this is about the time of year that I start hating it because its growing out of control.
7. I need some female friends...But DC Bitches...idk about...
8. My phone bill needs to be paid ASAP
9. My appetite is fucked up from my Half-Baked Project (but plus side- Ive lost like 10 pounds) But it was from long days of being hungry, but I can't eat, because as soon as I take one bite of anything I feel full, and my stomach starts hurting, and I feel as if Im going to throw up, and I hate throwing up
10. The only guy that I even remotely care for is acting stupid and we're beefing (well I'm beefing with him)...and its starting to make me not like him...forreal...and once I stop liking someone, its a wrap. I don't do second chances AT ALL... And to make matters even worse, I think my mother actually likes this guy, and she's never even met him. I know she likes him because she always asks me about him, and she never asks me about guys that she doesn't care too much for.
But on a good note...
Ive still got my health, except for my eczema driving me slightly crazy with the itching. So I can't really complain. All of this is expected as I have FINALLY branched out and started moving forward with my life. For a while, Ive been at a standstill, but that had to stop because I will not be stuck.
So the grind...yeah Im on it...the struggle...yeah I feel it...But it will all be worth it...Things are working out, things are looking up...You gotta have the struggle, so you can appreciate the success right?
I WILL NOT LOSE (c) Jay-z
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
WHOA!!
Dec. 9th was my last post. I been slacking BIG TIME.
I don't even really have anything to say now. Its fairly early, Im up, but thats because I went to sleep at like 11 on a FRIDAY NIGHT. So not me. But TONIGHT, Im partying HARD. My bitches are coming to visit, (btw Im out of town AGAIN) so I know it will be a crazy night. I was suppose to get my hair done but my aunt is booked up today, so now Imma have to do something to this mess I call hair. And I need a new outfit. So my day will pretty much go as such...
Shower ( if you remember I love showers lol)
Put on Clothes
Fix Hair
Go to cousins house and wait for her to get ready (hours of waiting time im sure)
Go to Mall
Eat
Go back to the house
Shower
Get Dressed
...the next couple of activites need not be mentioned...
(I don't wanna tarnish my good girl reputation HAHA)
Shake my ass in the club
...More activities that need not be mentioned...
SONG FOR THE NIGHT:
Blame It (Remix) - Jamie Foxx feat. Busta Rhymes, Lil Wayne And T-Pain
I don't even really have anything to say now. Its fairly early, Im up, but thats because I went to sleep at like 11 on a FRIDAY NIGHT. So not me. But TONIGHT, Im partying HARD. My bitches are coming to visit, (btw Im out of town AGAIN) so I know it will be a crazy night. I was suppose to get my hair done but my aunt is booked up today, so now Imma have to do something to this mess I call hair. And I need a new outfit. So my day will pretty much go as such...
Shower ( if you remember I love showers lol)
Put on Clothes
Fix Hair
Go to cousins house and wait for her to get ready (hours of waiting time im sure)
Go to Mall
Eat
Go back to the house
Shower
Get Dressed
...the next couple of activites need not be mentioned...
(I don't wanna tarnish my good girl reputation HAHA)
Shake my ass in the club
...More activities that need not be mentioned...
SONG FOR THE NIGHT:
Blame It (Remix) - Jamie Foxx feat. Busta Rhymes, Lil Wayne And T-Pain
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
MIA
yeah I know I've pretty much been MIA to this blog. But I'm good. I'm grinding. Doing a bunch of stuff that has to get done before the end of the year. And I'm in my second home state right now so the partying is in FULL EFFECT. I'm finally realizing that the shit I want in life is not gonna be handed to me. And once I'm done with this school shit, its poppin...life that is. Also I'm in party planning mode because Winter break is among us and all my friends are looking to me to have a good time. And I will not disappoint.
HOLLA HOLLA HOLLA...LMAO...Oh yeah, my half-baked project is still in effect. Now I see how people lose so much weight from smoking weed. In the beginning you will probably eat everything in sight and I found out from one of my textbooks it is because something in the weed lowers your blood sugar and therefore makes you extrememly hungry. But after you smoke for a while, you eventually will not be hungry and cannot eat unless you smoke first. Its weird. Ive heard stories of this happening to people, but it never made sense to me because I usually get instantly hungry after I smoke. Well enough about weed...
HOLLA HOLLA HOLLA...lol
HOLLA HOLLA HOLLA...LMAO...Oh yeah, my half-baked project is still in effect. Now I see how people lose so much weight from smoking weed. In the beginning you will probably eat everything in sight and I found out from one of my textbooks it is because something in the weed lowers your blood sugar and therefore makes you extrememly hungry. But after you smoke for a while, you eventually will not be hungry and cannot eat unless you smoke first. Its weird. Ive heard stories of this happening to people, but it never made sense to me because I usually get instantly hungry after I smoke. Well enough about weed...
HOLLA HOLLA HOLLA...lol
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Irate
Today I experienced something I never had before. Being stopped by the police and having my car searched. I was in the midst of taking my nephews to go see their grandmother when I was pulled over. I felt that it was about to happen as soon as I saw the police car, so I was not scared or nervous or anything.
Policeman comes to the car and does the usual, asking a million questions. Then he asks me one question...
Cop: "Do you have any marijuana in this car?"
Me: "No"
Cop: "This car has a strong smell of marijuana. Have you been smoking"
Me: "No"
Then he says Okay, and goes to his car. He comes back and asks me to step out of the car so he can ask me a question.
Cop: "Have you been smoking marijuana"
Me: "No."
Cop: "My concern are your nephews. Your car smells of marijuana. So I'm going to give you two tests that will determine if you've been smoking or not"
He does the tests, and at this point, I turn around and notice that he has called another cop for backup, and makes me perform the last test again. for the other cop..
Cop: "I'm going to ask you this again. Have you been smoking?
Me: "No. I just left work."
Other Cop: "Listen, just save yourself some time and trouble and tell us where the weed is. He smells it in your car, and he always finds it if he smells it. Either you can give us the weed, or we can take you downtown and perform a blood test to determine if you've been smoking or not."
Me: "Did I fail the test or something"
Other Cop: "Yes, you indicated to us that you are under the influence of marijuana"
Me: "how?"
Cop: "Because your eyes flickered"
Me: (blank stare)
Other Cop: "Where is the weed at? He is going to search your car now tell him where he can find the weed"
Me: "You can look but you will not find any weed in my car"
So the cop searches my car, with my nephews in the car, and DOES NOT find any weed.
Cop: "Im going to let you off with a warning for speeding. For some reason your car smells of marijuana. There was alot of marijuana in this car at one time. I saw an airfreshner under the seat. Most people use those to hide the smell of something. But since I didn't find anything you can go.
At this point, I walked the fuck off mad as hell, got in my car, and sped the fuck off.
FIRST of all my car DID NOT smell like weed AT ALL. Second of all, I always keep my car air freshners under my seat because I can still smell them without having to look at them. Third, there was never a large amount of weed in my car. Fourth, when the fuck did somebody develop a test to see if somebody was high. Normally a motherfucker LOOKS high, so if I was high, he would have been able to tell off top.
And that other cop was so fucking rude, it took everything I had in me not to curse that bitch out. All in my face talking about, "JUST TELL HIM WHERE THE WEED IS" I am so BEYOND MAD right now because this just happened about 5:00. And I dont even remember their badge numbers or their names.
And to add to that, my friend got pulled over yesterday and searched for weed. A girl. And the other night, my friends and I got pulled over when I was taking one of my cousins friends home. That cop was pleasant. My brake light was out and he let us go with a warning. But these cops today is the reason why black people DO NOT cooperate with cops. And add to the fact that they were white, makes me even more mad. I cannot hardly express the amount of anger I have right now. Like I can't even put it into words. All I can do is describe the situation.
I'll be back with more. I am NOT done with this AT ALL...
Policeman comes to the car and does the usual, asking a million questions. Then he asks me one question...
Cop: "Do you have any marijuana in this car?"
Me: "No"
Cop: "This car has a strong smell of marijuana. Have you been smoking"
Me: "No"
Then he says Okay, and goes to his car. He comes back and asks me to step out of the car so he can ask me a question.
Cop: "Have you been smoking marijuana"
Me: "No."
Cop: "My concern are your nephews. Your car smells of marijuana. So I'm going to give you two tests that will determine if you've been smoking or not"
He does the tests, and at this point, I turn around and notice that he has called another cop for backup, and makes me perform the last test again. for the other cop..
Cop: "I'm going to ask you this again. Have you been smoking?
Me: "No. I just left work."
Other Cop: "Listen, just save yourself some time and trouble and tell us where the weed is. He smells it in your car, and he always finds it if he smells it. Either you can give us the weed, or we can take you downtown and perform a blood test to determine if you've been smoking or not."
Me: "Did I fail the test or something"
Other Cop: "Yes, you indicated to us that you are under the influence of marijuana"
Me: "how?"
Cop: "Because your eyes flickered"
Me: (blank stare)
Other Cop: "Where is the weed at? He is going to search your car now tell him where he can find the weed"
Me: "You can look but you will not find any weed in my car"
So the cop searches my car, with my nephews in the car, and DOES NOT find any weed.
Cop: "Im going to let you off with a warning for speeding. For some reason your car smells of marijuana. There was alot of marijuana in this car at one time. I saw an airfreshner under the seat. Most people use those to hide the smell of something. But since I didn't find anything you can go.
At this point, I walked the fuck off mad as hell, got in my car, and sped the fuck off.
FIRST of all my car DID NOT smell like weed AT ALL. Second of all, I always keep my car air freshners under my seat because I can still smell them without having to look at them. Third, there was never a large amount of weed in my car. Fourth, when the fuck did somebody develop a test to see if somebody was high. Normally a motherfucker LOOKS high, so if I was high, he would have been able to tell off top.
And that other cop was so fucking rude, it took everything I had in me not to curse that bitch out. All in my face talking about, "JUST TELL HIM WHERE THE WEED IS" I am so BEYOND MAD right now because this just happened about 5:00. And I dont even remember their badge numbers or their names.
And to add to that, my friend got pulled over yesterday and searched for weed. A girl. And the other night, my friends and I got pulled over when I was taking one of my cousins friends home. That cop was pleasant. My brake light was out and he let us go with a warning. But these cops today is the reason why black people DO NOT cooperate with cops. And add to the fact that they were white, makes me even more mad. I cannot hardly express the amount of anger I have right now. Like I can't even put it into words. All I can do is describe the situation.
I'll be back with more. I am NOT done with this AT ALL...
Monday, November 10, 2008
Response to a Comment
"well we better free our minds and recoginze the real. he is one man and although he sounded good and this is historic, america has to want to change, not to mention many of us negro comfortable up in here. i just hope the red states dont take us back pre 1960"
I have heard so many people just simply talking about Obama in normal conversation. This weekend, my friend had a bday party, and a circle of guys were smoking weed and talking about Obama. I thought it was beautiful.
I don't think Obama is going to change the world. I know that real change is only gonna come when people, individually and collectively, decide to change. I really like Obama because he knows that too. He is always telling people to not only believe in his ability to change Washington, but our ability as well.
I don't think that on January 20th my life is going to immediately get better. In fact, I think it will probably be near the end of Obama's 1st 4 year term before we see any real significant signs of change. I learned that hard times for the economy comes in cycles. We experience a rise in economy, then a boom, then a fall. With Clinton, the economy was falling, but its when Bush got into office, and the decisions he made, that put us into a recession, damn near depression. So thats about 16 years of work that Obama is going to have to reverse. He's not a miracle worker, he is just the President. But I believe he is going to be a great president. A historic president, if not for all times, especially for these times. And he is black, so when I tell my children they can be whatever they want to be, I really mean it.
I have heard so many people just simply talking about Obama in normal conversation. This weekend, my friend had a bday party, and a circle of guys were smoking weed and talking about Obama. I thought it was beautiful.
I don't think Obama is going to change the world. I know that real change is only gonna come when people, individually and collectively, decide to change. I really like Obama because he knows that too. He is always telling people to not only believe in his ability to change Washington, but our ability as well.
I don't think that on January 20th my life is going to immediately get better. In fact, I think it will probably be near the end of Obama's 1st 4 year term before we see any real significant signs of change. I learned that hard times for the economy comes in cycles. We experience a rise in economy, then a boom, then a fall. With Clinton, the economy was falling, but its when Bush got into office, and the decisions he made, that put us into a recession, damn near depression. So thats about 16 years of work that Obama is going to have to reverse. He's not a miracle worker, he is just the President. But I believe he is going to be a great president. A historic president, if not for all times, especially for these times. And he is black, so when I tell my children they can be whatever they want to be, I really mean it.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Beautiful
That is the only word that I can use to describe what it means for me to have Barack Obama as the 44th President of the United States of America...
My President is Black!! I can't say it enough...
Yesterday, as I was pulling into the place where I would be voting, I started tearing up out of nowhere. I think it really hit me that what I was doing was going to be apart of history. As I am typing this I am tearing up because it is just beautiful that FINALLY, FINALLY, we seem to be moving forward as a nation.
I could not bare to even watch the election results as they unfolded but luckily through Facebook I was kept up to date with the election and when I received a phone call from my friend screaming on the other end, I knew. And I immediately let out a sigh of relief. I had been holding my breath all day for Obama. And to watch his speech last night was Amazing. I wish I could have been there. The look on his face was beautiful, his wife's face, his kids faces, the people's faces, BEAUTIFUL.
I will admit that I never followed Obama throughout the campaign. I went to an Obama Rally but that was more of a it just happened type thing. And last night was the first time I actually sat down and watched Obama speak. It was Beautiful.
I will say this about McCain though, the part of his speech where he acknowledged that Obama winning was a historic and joyous occassion for African Americans was nice of him. At least he recognizes that. But I don't think he really understands. I didn't really understand until about two days ago how important this is. When I saw the status' on facebook and myspace about Obama, the pictures of the celebrations people had, it was just Beautiful. I literally tear up every single time I think about it. I can't say it enough- BEAUTIFUL.
I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!! (tear)
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Please Don't Fail Me America
I turned to Channel 11 thinking I was going to watch Jeopardy at 7 pm, and I saw exactly what I've been avoiding ALL DAY...
Election talks...results...it was Obama 3, McCain 8, when I turned to the channel. And I tried to watch it but after I saw that only 22% of Virginia's African American population voted, I couldn't bare to watch anymore. Only 22%??? Really? My people, My People. And will be the first ones complaining if something went terribly wrong and Obama doesn't become president.
I can't watch it. I'm too anxious to find out who is going to win that I'd rather just hear the results than to watch them as they unfold. Its too much for me. Because if Barack Obama does not win, I will be so hurt. It won't seem real. He has to win. He is the obvious winner. Please don't let me down America. Lets do something right for once. Just this once.
Election talks...results...it was Obama 3, McCain 8, when I turned to the channel. And I tried to watch it but after I saw that only 22% of Virginia's African American population voted, I couldn't bare to watch anymore. Only 22%??? Really? My people, My People. And will be the first ones complaining if something went terribly wrong and Obama doesn't become president.
I can't watch it. I'm too anxious to find out who is going to win that I'd rather just hear the results than to watch them as they unfold. Its too much for me. Because if Barack Obama does not win, I will be so hurt. It won't seem real. He has to win. He is the obvious winner. Please don't let me down America. Lets do something right for once. Just this once.
Monday, October 27, 2008
October 9th
That was the date of my last post. I'm slacking HARD. But I have reason. I've been busy as hell. Between Schoolwork, Working, Buying Dress Clothes (that I am going to be re-imbursed for YAY), and chillin with friends, I haven't hardly been on the computer at all.
Nothing big to update. I've still been on my Half Baked project. Going well. Have you ever been so tired where you couldn't even keep your eyes open? I never have until last Saturday. Being tired on weed, is totally different from just being tired.
HALLOWEEN is Friday, and I haven't gotten ANYTHING for my costume. That is so not me. I usually have my entire costume, down to the smallest accessory about 2 weeks ago. So I'm definitely gonna be scrounging around trying to piece everything together by Thursday.
Speaking of Thursday, Im suppose to go to Maryland. But I found out yesterday that one of my bitches is having her birthday party celebration this Saturday. I don't want to miss it even though I know she won't mind because I been talking about going to Maryland for Halloween. But I'm going to feel bad for missing it. But I wanna go to Maryland for a couple of reasons...WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DO??? Well I gotta decide by Wednesday at the latest. (sigh) Decisions, Decisions...
Then on top of that, I'm SICK. Like so sick I couldn't even sleep last night. My eye is swollen. I look and feel like Shit. But I HAVE TO BE BETTER BY FRIDAY!!!!! So the orange juice, apple juice, medicine, tea, and all that good stuff is in full effect.
Nothing big to update. I've still been on my Half Baked project. Going well. Have you ever been so tired where you couldn't even keep your eyes open? I never have until last Saturday. Being tired on weed, is totally different from just being tired.
HALLOWEEN is Friday, and I haven't gotten ANYTHING for my costume. That is so not me. I usually have my entire costume, down to the smallest accessory about 2 weeks ago. So I'm definitely gonna be scrounging around trying to piece everything together by Thursday.
Speaking of Thursday, Im suppose to go to Maryland. But I found out yesterday that one of my bitches is having her birthday party celebration this Saturday. I don't want to miss it even though I know she won't mind because I been talking about going to Maryland for Halloween. But I'm going to feel bad for missing it. But I wanna go to Maryland for a couple of reasons...WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DO??? Well I gotta decide by Wednesday at the latest. (sigh) Decisions, Decisions...
Then on top of that, I'm SICK. Like so sick I couldn't even sleep last night. My eye is swollen. I look and feel like Shit. But I HAVE TO BE BETTER BY FRIDAY!!!!! So the orange juice, apple juice, medicine, tea, and all that good stuff is in full effect.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I'm Starting a New Blog
Well another new one. But this one is more of a picture blog of my apparent "party lifestyle."
I don't know anything about Wordpress but I always liked the sleekness of it. So I guess this blog will become my writing blog since I usually write more on here anyway. Speaking of writing, I have a draft to one of my books finished. Well more like a blueprint. I wrote the introduction, and have the outline of the book. Now I have to get into graphic design mode and see what I can pull together for my illustrations. My drawing skills are okay, if I'm doing 2-d things. Shading and all that other stuff is another story. But I should be fine. Now my novel I was writing is still on 8 pages since about 2 years ago. I just found it the other day, and I think I'm going to just write a few pages a day off the top of my head to get the ideas out and pick and choose which way I want it to go. If I could channel and focus my creative energy I would be great.
I should be doing some work
I have to write a 500 word essay, which is really more like a paragraph to me, but I can't focus AT ALL. The topic is interesting enough, and I know I can knock this out in no time, but I can't focus AT ALL. I'm doing everything else but what I should be. As much as I try to get my mind on school, I just can't. Good thing I'm smart and don't really have to try so hard to do this work or I'd really be a failure.
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