Frustrationnnnnnnnsssss....

In my Miguel voice.

I woke up from a dream last night so mad and irritated. I had to meditate this morning because Lord knows I would be in a fucked up mood if I didn't. I'm still not my normal cheery self and I think people can tell. lol.

I am becoming more and more frustrated with a lot of things. I need a change of scenery. I'm not to the point where I just want to quit and say fuck everything but I can feel it coming.

I need some adventure. I'm getting bored with life again. The students give me a little excitement for the day but otherwise, I'd rather be anywhere else but here. I have a fear of getting stuck here. I'll be like Whitehead. lol. Been leaving WCHS for at least 10 years now and still ain't went nowhere. I dont mind being here but Lord, Imma need a man, so I can start a family. That is about the only incentive I see to staying around here.

Otherwise, I have got to get the fuck, and since I have not met anybody here that is even remotely worth staying around here with, I gotta go to Plan B.

Don't ask me what Plan B is yet. I'm still trying to figure that out myself. Well no, Plan B is these screenplays. I got to get on that somehow. Thats gonna be my claim to fame. My door into the lifestyle I want to live. I think, lol. We gone see. Basically thats where I'm at in my life right now. Doing a bunch of we will seeing. lol

Which is not bad but its not all that good either. But hey, no risk, no reward. God send me on an adventure. I'm ready for something new and exciting and different and amazing and JUST FOR ME.

Let me know what I need to do. Amen. Thanks for everything. You know I'm beyond grateful.