Current Mood: I Don't Even Know

I am feeling some type of way right now. I hate that phrase but it fits because I can't exactly put my finger on how I am feeling. I want to cry, but I don't at the same time. I don't know how I want to feel. I woke up this morning, actually missing somebody. Like Officially. I been missing him, but its really hitting me now. And its so bad that I actually want to just go somewhere and cry about it. To at least get my feelings out.

I don't know how else to deal with this bullshit. I'm trying not to do my normal just saying fuck it and pretend like these feelings don't exist. But feeling them doesn't make me feel any better. And I know why I feel the way I do. It's all me. But I cant escape me, so how do I escape these feelings?Cause right now I wanna cry. And thats it. Lord knows I don't need to be angry anymore. I have officially decided to let that go.