Tuesday, November 18, 2008


Today I experienced something I never had before. Being stopped by the police and having my car searched. I was in the midst of taking my nephews to go see their grandmother when I was pulled over. I felt that it was about to happen as soon as I saw the police car, so I was not scared or nervous or anything.

Policeman comes to the car and does the usual, asking a million questions. Then he asks me one question...

Cop: "Do you have any marijuana in this car?"

Me: "No"

Cop: "This car has a strong smell of marijuana. Have you been smoking"

Me: "No"

Then he says Okay, and goes to his car. He comes back and asks me to step out of the car so he can ask me a question.

Cop: "Have you been smoking marijuana"

Me: "No."

Cop: "My concern are your nephews. Your car smells of marijuana. So I'm going to give you two tests that will determine if you've been smoking or not"

He does the tests, and at this point, I turn around and notice that he has called another cop for backup, and makes me perform the last test again. for the other cop..

Cop: "I'm going to ask you this again. Have you been smoking?

Me: "No. I just left work."

Other Cop: "Listen, just save yourself some time and trouble and tell us where the weed is. He smells it in your car, and he always finds it if he smells it. Either you can give us the weed, or we can take you downtown and perform a blood test to determine if you've been smoking or not."

Me: "Did I fail the test or something"

Other Cop: "Yes, you indicated to us that you are under the influence of marijuana"

Me: "how?"

Cop: "Because your eyes flickered"

Me: (blank stare)

Other Cop: "Where is the weed at? He is going to search your car now tell him where he can find the weed"

Me: "You can look but you will not find any weed in my car"

So the cop searches my car, with my nephews in the car, and DOES NOT find any weed.

Cop: "Im going to let you off with a warning for speeding. For some reason your car smells of marijuana. There was alot of marijuana in this car at one time. I saw an airfreshner under the seat. Most people use those to hide the smell of something. But since I didn't find anything you can go.

At this point, I walked the fuck off mad as hell, got in my car, and sped the fuck off.

FIRST of all my car DID NOT smell like weed AT ALL. Second of all, I always keep my car air freshners under my seat because I can still smell them without having to look at them. Third, there was never a large amount of weed in my car. Fourth, when the fuck did somebody develop a test to see if somebody was high. Normally a motherfucker LOOKS high, so if I was high, he would have been able to tell off top.

And that other cop was so fucking rude, it took everything I had in me not to curse that bitch out. All in my face talking about, "JUST TELL HIM WHERE THE WEED IS" I am so BEYOND MAD right now because this just happened about 5:00. And I dont even remember their badge numbers or their names.

And to add to that, my friend got pulled over yesterday and searched for weed. A girl. And the other night, my friends and I got pulled over when I was taking one of my cousins friends home. That cop was pleasant. My brake light was out and he let us go with a warning. But these cops today is the reason why black people DO NOT cooperate with cops. And add to the fact that they were white, makes me even more mad. I cannot hardly express the amount of anger I have right now. Like I can't even put it into words. All I can do is describe the situation.

I'll be back with more. I am NOT done with this AT ALL...

Monday, November 10, 2008

Response to a Comment

"well we better free our minds and recoginze the real. he is one man and although he sounded good and this is historic, america has to want to change, not to mention many of us negro comfortable up in here. i just hope the red states dont take us back pre 1960"

I have heard so many people just simply talking about Obama in normal conversation. This weekend, my friend had a bday party, and a circle of guys were smoking weed and talking about Obama. I thought it was beautiful.

I don't think Obama is going to change the world. I know that real change is only gonna come when people, individually and collectively, decide to change. I really like Obama because he knows that too. He is always telling people to not only believe in his ability to change Washington, but our ability as well.

I don't think that on January 20th my life is going to immediately get better. In fact, I think it will probably be near the end of Obama's 1st 4 year term before we see any real significant signs of change. I learned that hard times for the economy comes in cycles. We experience a rise in economy, then a boom, then a fall. With Clinton, the economy was falling, but its when Bush got into office, and the decisions he made, that put us into a recession, damn near depression. So thats about 16 years of work that Obama is going to have to reverse. He's not a miracle worker, he is just the President. But I believe he is going to be a great president. A historic president, if not for all times, especially for these times. And he is black, so when I tell my children they can be whatever they want to be, I really mean it.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


That is the only word that I can use to describe what it means for me to have Barack Obama as the 44th President of the United States of America...

My President is Black!! I can't say it enough...

Yesterday, as I was pulling into the place where I would be voting, I started tearing up out of nowhere. I think it really hit me that what I was doing was going to be apart of history. As I am typing this I am tearing up because it is just beautiful that FINALLY, FINALLY, we seem to be moving forward as a nation.

I could not bare to even watch the election results as they unfolded but luckily through Facebook I was kept up to date with the election and when I received a phone call from my friend screaming on the other end, I knew. And I immediately let out a sigh of relief. I had been holding my breath all day for Obama. And to watch his speech last night was Amazing. I wish I could have been there. The look on his face was beautiful, his wife's face, his kids faces, the people's faces, BEAUTIFUL.

I will admit that I never followed Obama throughout the campaign. I went to an Obama Rally but that was more of a it just happened type thing. And last night was the first time I actually sat down and watched Obama speak. It was Beautiful.

I will say this about McCain though, the part of his speech where he acknowledged that Obama winning was a historic and joyous occassion for African Americans was nice of him. At least he recognizes that. But I don't think he really understands. I didn't really understand until about two days ago how important this is. When I saw the status' on facebook and myspace about Obama, the pictures of the celebrations people had, it was just Beautiful. I literally tear up every single time I think about it. I can't say it enough- BEAUTIFUL.


Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Please Don't Fail Me America

I turned to Channel 11 thinking I was going to watch Jeopardy at 7 pm, and I saw exactly what I've been avoiding ALL DAY...

Election talks...results...it was Obama 3, McCain 8, when I turned to the channel. And I tried to watch it but after I saw that only 22% of Virginia's African American population voted, I couldn't bare to watch anymore. Only 22%??? Really? My people, My People. And will be the first ones complaining if something went terribly wrong and Obama doesn't become president.

I can't watch it. I'm too anxious to find out who is going to win that I'd rather just hear the results than to watch them as they unfold. Its too much for me. Because if Barack Obama does not win, I will be so hurt. It won't seem real. He has to win. He is the obvious winner. Please don't let me down America. Lets do something right for once. Just this once.

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